Thursday, July 15, 2010

Thankful Thursday.

I am thankful today for the place that I have to live in. It's beautiful and we have been there almost a year. This is the first place we have stayed longer then six months in at a time other then my parents house and our house we had bought. I know that I never feel quite like I belong anywhere. Its a crazy feeling to never feel centered. I always feel like there is a different place we should be. I know that it really get's on Hub's nerves but he gets me. Sometime I feel like until I am a Mom I wont feel like I am centered or full filled.

I love my job as a Nanny but feel like I need a job where I can make more money or at least do a craft that will bring in more money for me and the house hold. I know that there are lots of people feeling this right now in the world today I am not alone. I don't know why we had to go backwards. Hub's and I worked so hard to get our credit in order and our first house. We had it all but then I had to quit my well paying job and we went to a one income household. This is the shits. I miss going out and buying things I wanted not really needed. I know our credit is in need of some major fixing and we are plugging away the best that we both can.

What I am thankful for are the things we do have and the things we get to see and the places we get to go to. We are lucky to have a place to lay our heads at night.  That no matter how bad it could get Hub's and I have eachother always and that is a great feeling.  Now if I could just get that book written and sell zillions of copies become a #1 hit and maybe even made into a movie....with action hero dolls. I would be able to give back to all the people that have helped us when we needed it the most. :)

Yup that is what I am thankful for today!

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