Thursday, May 31, 2012

Do you ever want to run away?

I have been feeling like I just need to run away. Not from my family, to my family. Not from my friends but to start fresh, I had a ton of people that viewed my blog. Now the amount of people are down a little bit. Do I let this one go and start another one filled with things I am into now? Do I re-vamp this and go from there instead?

I don't feel like I can leave this completely. I love to write, I love to blog. I love the community of blogging. I loved the direction that writing was bringing me and where it brought me. Now I have to figure it out. I waited to blog untill I got the boys home, then I waited until things settled down. Now I am getting in the swing of things and slowly starting to find my way back to writing.

I never know where I will go or where my writing will take me. I would just like to try and figure it out. I need something that the boys can look back on and read and be proud of me for.
I use to write about great places I traveld to and events I was part of. I want to do this but center this around being a parent. If you read my blog I would love to hear your thoughts.

I have to find a direction and hopefully do it soon. What do you like to read? What would you rather not have to read?

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Wordless Wednesday

I can't wait for out Memorail day BBQ. It makes me feel like its the start of the fun summer times.

Tempt my Tummy Tuesday.

This is the best Recipe, it is easy and great for all sorts of meats. I'm doing a bundle of BBQ sauces for fathers day. Pour it in a mason jar and then cut up a bandana and add a thin rope to tie it all together. This is the first post  that I will post until fathers day. Enjoy!

Sweet and Simple BBQ Sauce.

                                                         Thank you Goole for the picture!
  • 1/2 (1 ounce) package dry onion soup mix ( I use lipton.)
  • 1/2 cup packed Brown Sugar.
  • 2 cups ketchup
  • 1 tablespoon Worcestershire sauce
  • 1/2 tablespoon liquid smoke.
  • 1/2 teaspoon honey


  1. In a medium bowl, mix together onion soup mix, sugar, honey, ketchup, liquid smoke and Worcestershire sauce.
  2. Warm up on low.
  3. Add it to mason jar let cool.
  4. add decoration and enjoy this for yourself or that Guy in your life.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Wordless Wednesday.

We had a Dr's appointment in down town Seattle and we took the time to spend the day with afterward sightseeing a little bit down town Seattle. There is no other place on earth that is more beautiful then that of the Seattle skyline on a beautiful sunny day, The water looks like diamonds dancing on top of it.
The ferry ride back to the Peninsula was breathe taking. I am lucky to live in this beautiful place and call it home.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Mishaps and advenures in mommyhood.

I use to have the time to sit and write everyday. Being able to go at a moments notice to do these fab hotel reviews and wonderful nights out on the town. Sharing with my readers the places to go, food to try and play and productions to get tickets to and go enjoy. My goal was to always help women in business in the local area and beyond. I thought I was busy then......

Then at the 28 mark of the birth of my twin boys things changed, things became busy but I still had time to write and review. Then after a few months in the NICU baby F got to come home on Christmas eve, the very best gift a mommy could have gotten I was so torn at that very moment I came to understand that no matter what unless my boys were together I would feel torn and missing the other. 

It took a little over a month until Baby B could come home. He had some problems I wont get into it now, but when he did get home having two babies and the trying to do the balancing followed. I thought that I knew it all and boy oh boy I had no idea.

My journey into motherhood was not what the normal way in to which most have babies, the way I did it was what you hear about on the cover of US weekly. What you think Stars do so that they don't gain any weight of have any of that pain that goes into child birth. My story is nothing like that, my dream my entire life was to be a mama, my family knew that and when all the stars in the sky were in the right order and my cousin who is more like my sister decided to help me make my dream come true of having a little person call me mommy!

Lucky for me, I got the best buy one get one free deal ever. When they told us we were having twins my heart about exploded, first with delight and being over joyed, then next fear and self doubt that follwed me around. How the heck could I be a mommy to two babies at once. Piece of cake right?  WRONG! :)

I know this so far:  I'm very very far from being a perfect parent and I have so much to learn. What I know for sure is that this is the life I have always wanted and I'm not the same person I was 6 months ago and I thank the Lord above about that! F&B made me a completely different person, a mommy. How they grow up and treat me will be how they love and treat their families later in life. I can't mess this up like so many things I have messed up in my life before this.
This sounds crazy but I truly feel like I was born the day they were.

I decided that as a blogger who is now a mommy, that I would write more about that. I will still do posts about what is fun and hotel reviews that are kid friendly, how when we plan a trip to Disney on a shoe string budget.  I will tell you of places to eat that don't give you the hairy eyeball if your kid screams or makes a mess on the table or in his pants.  There will be laugter till you cry reading what I am going through, and at times crying until you laugh with me.  I will be painfully truthful of my misguided attempts at doing the best at rasing these beautiful baby boys and not driving away my husband.

I invite you on this journey.