Sunday, December 26, 2010

Our big present.........

For the last few months the “Hubs” and I have been working on trying to have a baby. 

Now we can’t have a baby the traditional way like most people can. I was sick when I was almost twenty. Leading me to have a complete hysterectomy. The Endometriosis was so awful and after having ten DNC & fourteen Laparoscopy’s between the ages of thirteen and twenty. My poor young body and mind didn’t even know what was about to  hit me, the many things I missed most of my peers were able to enjoy. A period that lasted 297 days straight with no stopping! Truly wasn't at all what a girl in her teens and early twenty's should ever have to go through. 

That happening brought me down the road to a OBGYN "Dr. Jane." at one of the best Dr's in The USA right here is Seattle. Sadly she retired but she was a dream come true because she did one thing that none of the other Male doctors that I went to did..... she listened to me! 

Being so scared the morning at post op, my parents took me to have the surgery, holding my hand and being their every step of the way. Fear spilled all over me &  I wanted to back out.  Reminding me of the heartache and all of the pain that I had gone through, the life I haven't been able to enjoy as I should. I knew in my heart that it was the thing to do.
My mom held me while I cried and my Dad had to walk out of the room, I could see the lump in his throat a mile away. Always being the strong one I know that this broke his heart. Twenty years old and I was never going to have a grand baby for my parents to love and help me raise.  We are so close that what hurts one of us hurts us all. 
“Hub’s” and I tried to adopt but a few to many road block come knocking down our dreams to do  that one at a time. Talking to a friend that had three lovely children of her own, said that she would carry a baby for us all we would have to do is find an egg. After talking about it to her family and husband the risk was to big for them to take. 
It still means the world to us that she would even think of doing this for us. 
We started getting ready to do all the things to become certified foster parents, when all of a sudden out of a conversation that started out over a cup of coffee on a normal monday morning.  One of my sis in law’s ( I have a few) said that we should maybe go down that avenue of surrogacy. Hopeful that she could do it, but that was a dead end to....but this time it got me to start thinking and talking about it to some close family on (myside) and close friends when out of another simple conversation at a Scentsy party.

My cousin “C” said why don’t I carry the baby for you. ( Thinking that it wouldn’t be something that would happen like the times before) Something different happened this time...... She talked to her husband and her family, made a doctors appointment with her Ob and family doctor. 
Called us and gave us the green light. We then went to the PNW Fertility Clinic Seattle & saw the doctor they "C's" doctor had said we needed to see. 

"Hub's" & I were a bundle of nerves when we made our way up to the Swedish building. We walked from the ferry all the way up the big hills all the way to 11th. I was hungry, nervous and kinda bitchie...... well more then Kinda!!

We were warmly treated and they walked us through the entire process from the start to the finish. We even saw the room that our baby will be made in. I was a hot mess when we saw the flash that the Embryo's make when they connect. The feeling of hope and excitement is the first time I have ever felt in my entire life.

Then they told us the $8000.00+ price tag to start. I cried a little more, then decided that it is nothing to pay for our child to be born. So we are going to do a few things to come up with the money & we hope that "C" will be pregnant by the end of March!  & that by November will be parents.

So our greatest gift was being told that we are going to be parents and nothing is going to go wrong. We are super excited. :) That is truly the most exciting part of my life.